. . . The light will appear and move ahead of you
For the past several months, I have been experiencing a health issue that has become progressively worse. The symptoms have, for all intents and purposes, pointed to a problem with my digestive system. Initially, the condition first appeared as acid indigestion when I was walking on a treadmill in the exercise room at our apartment complex. In spite of my conscious efforts to minimize this uncomfortable situation by walking more slowly, less frequently, and by adjusting my food intake prior to the start of my exercise program, nothing seemed to alter the condition for the better.
When I finally went to the doctor on Monday of this week for his professional diagnosis, he smiled and then kindly suggested that I didn't have a digestive problem. Instead, the physician determined that I was suffering with stable angina, a condition that makes it difficult for the heart to circulate blood when under stress such as during times when the body is engaged in vigorous exercise. He recommended that I see a heart specialist as soon as possible.
You can imagine the anxiety that I felt when we left the doctor's office. Not knowing what would happen next, I needed to deal with my own personal crisis with my faith. Then I remembered the words spoken by Dieter F. Uchtdorf, Second Counselor in the First Presidency, at our last General Church Conference in April: "If our hearts are pure, if we seek not our own glory but the glory of Almight God, if we seek to do His will, if we desire to bless the lives of our family and fellowmen - we will not be left alone."
I can honestly testify that during this past week we have have not been alone but have experienced one miracle after another as we have been guided by an unseen divine source to accomplish everything that needed to be done. We have been able to obtain an appointment with a highly recommended heart specialist, successfully complete a heart catheterization, and engage the services of a skilled heart surgeon who will perform bypass surgery on me next Monday at Union Memorial Hospital, which has the highest success rate for bypass surgery in Maryland
Concerning man's faith in receiving divine guidance when the path ahead is unknown and uncharted, Harold B. Lee, former president of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, instructed believers, "Walk to the edge of the light, and perhaps a few steps into the darkness, and you will find that the light will appear and move ahead of you." I have had a personal opportunity to ponder and reflect these past few days upon what it really means to struggle with exercising your faith while overcoming your doubts.
Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth. And straightway the father of the child cried out, and said with tears, Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief. (Mark 9:23-24)
We must choose faith over doubt, choose faith over fear, choose faith over the unknown and the unseen, and choose faith over pessimism. Lord, I believe; help thou mine unbelief!






